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Good evening everyone and thank you for stopping by my little ole blog for a minute.
I have been having an issue with some swelling on my neck that started about 2 years ago. It scared me so bad that I went to the E.R. and was told that I had a growth on my thyroid. I was so scared because the swelling was making it difficult to swallow and breathe and it came on without warning or provoking. They ran multiple test on me and sent me on my way.
A couple days later I get a call to go see an endocrinologist and see what they recommend. Well low and behold I had to have a needle drain on the swelling and that should take care of everything since all my function test came back normal. Things were great after that with no more swelling or difficulty to breath. Couple months later go back for more function test and again they are all normal. Thank God is all I can say about that because it is scary.
However, this past February my neck started to swell again. This time I realized I didn't need to go back to the E.R. so instead I went to my family doctor. She sent me for an ultrasound on my neck and it came back as the goiter is still growing. Not by much but by enough. Off to Advanced ENT I go (I wouldn't recommend these people if my life depended on it) and they recommend a needle aspiration so that is done. Results, nothing, noda, zip, zilch, empty. Seriously people come on, something has to be going on or showing up for this to keep happening.
I get very emotional and upset, start to cry and the doctor looks at me and says "if you are going to act this way there is not point in talking to you" and gets up and walks out.
I was looked at the nurse and said "did that seriously just happen" "did he really just say that and walk out". Needless to say I didn't go back to that doctor.
So I go to the doctor about a month ago and she recommends another doctor. I go to the doctor, again another ultrasound and the results today. He says that I have to have surgery because it keeps growing and they have no reason as to why. All the test come back negative and all my levels are normal.
My son had just gone through this about 2 years before when he tried to join the Army. The doctor found a goiter on his neck and that started a whole series of appointments, testing, scans, more testing, more appointments until finally they determined it was not cancer and gave him a radiation treatment to kill off the thyroid because it kept growing. Since then he has had no more problems. I was scared for my son and I did my best like every parent should and kept positive and told him that he had nothing to worry about.
Well now it is my turn. My son tells me that it is nothing to worry about because he had the same problem and he is fine now. Although my problem is a little different then his, I have to have surgery. But you know as I am sitting here writing this it just occurred to me that my son didn't have to have surgery so why should I? He took a radiation pill and was basically quarantined for 10 days. Not that it is really an option for me since I have my grandson living here. I have yet to tell him that the doctor scheduled surgery for 4 days before his birthday. Man this is going to suck.
My daughter was the first one I told and she looked like she was going to bust out in tears. She was a trooper though because she kept them inside. I know it scares her for anything to possibly happen to me or her brother. Since my oldest died 8 years ago we tend to panic when it comes to serious illnesses or procedures.
My husband gets home from work and I inform him and the look on his face was scary. He normally doesn't show emotion but today he did and it was a look of worry, concern and scared all rolled into one. I told him I didn't want to have surgery and normally he would say "it doesn't matter what you want, you gotta do it" but today he could only say "I know and I don't want you to either".
For years I have fought depression, anxiety, weight gain, sleep deprivation, memory loss, headaches, and just complete and utter exhaustion. I have a low heart rate and blood pressure unless I am having a hot flash..lol. I started menopause at 35 and it is still going. I have all the symptoms of a thyroid problem but have always chalked it up to low iron levels and not drinking milk. My family doctor has always been great at running every test imaginable so you would figure that I would have either low or high thyroid levels but they have always come back normal. This is scary shit in my opinion and there is nothing that I can do about it. I have to leave it in Gods hands and the doctors. They know what is best. After all they are the experts, not me.
So of course what does my dumb ass do????? If you guessed looking it up on YouTube you are a gazillion percent correct. Oh how I wish I hadn't done that. My stomach was turning from being nauseous and my nerves are absolutely wrecked. If I wasn't already scared I sure as hell am now. I highly advise you not to do what I did and look it up on YouTube. Scary Scary shit right there.
Anyway, this is what is going on with me at the moment and God willing it will be just the one thyroid and the pathologist won't find any cancer. They say if it is cancer it is the best one to have. Uh seriously, no cancer is a good cancer to have. The side affects are a possible change in my voice, hoarseness and taking off work for at least a week. Great just what I need.
However, I have to look at things like this...God knows what he is doing and I am going to get through as long as I have him and my family on my side. Plus I get to go on vacation to Philly and NYC at the end of October so I will be plenty busy at work until I leave for vacation.
I just would like to take this time and ask for you to keep me and my family in your prayers as we are approaching and going through this ordeal. It is scary to say the least and even though it is a routine procedure there is always room for error.
Thank you and have a great evening or day and God Bless.