Hello everyone I hope you are enjoying your Sunday evening. I know here in this house has been extremely laid back today. Of course I was babysitting my most adorable grandson today while his mommy was working to make a better life for him.
Isn't he just adorable. This was taking tonight after his mommy got home from a hard day at work. She works at The Great American Cookie Company in one of the busiest malls in town. She has worked so hard to make sure that they have a good life and he is supported. She has only been with them for about 6 months and has already been promoted to an Assisted Manager position. I am so proud of her and the woman and mother she is and has become.
So today is all about my weight loss journey. I was never a heavy child or even puggy child when I was growing up and was still skinny into high school. However, when I was 16 I got pregnant and gained 80 lbs. I was able to get rid of almost all of it when I found out I was pregnant again with this one above. I only gained the recommended 35 lbs with her but wasn't able to lose it again. I guess that is what I get for having 2 kids 16 months apart. But that is ok because I still finished high school, went to college and worked full time. I did manage to lose some of the 35 lbs and got back to a comfortable weight. But as time went on I started to gain weight and it never seemed to end.
I was 120 when I got pregnant the first time, lost it then pregnant again, kept most, got pregnant again, didn't lose much and then again another pregnancy and kept that weight. I had stayed between 150-165 for many many years. But then it just kept coming. At one point I was up to 223 which was the heaviest I had ever weighed. Now some of you may not think that is a big number but for me it was. No one ever believed me when I told them how much I weighed because I was really good at hiding it. However, it was not disguised as much as I had hoped from a lot of people because I kept getting asked when my baby was due. I wasn't pregnant nor could I get pregnant anymore. I felt as horrible as they did when they discovered I wasn't.
So lets fast-forward to this past November (25 yrs after my first daughter). I don't know why but for some reason I stepped on the scale. I was mortified. The number on there just didn't seem real. I mean I knew it had to be because my pants kept getting tighter and I kept buying bigger sizes. The scale read 235!!!!! WHAT? HOW? WHEN? WHY? IS IT BROKEN? These are all things that went through my mind when I seen that number. Now again, to some it may not seem like a big number if you are heavier then that I am here to tell you that it doesn't happen overnight and it won't come off over night. There are a lot of people out there that are fortunate enough to be skinny and that is great for them. Trust me I was one of them for along time but then kids and life happened to me.
Yes I know that there are a lot of people out there that can have kids and be right back into their pre-pregnancy clothes. My oldest daughter was one of them. She delivered her daughter and was wearing her pre-pregnancy pants the same day. It just didn't seem fair but I was happy for her.
So I have told myself this year like I do every year that I am going to lose weight, get healthy, change my wardrobe. But lets be brutally honest here. I didn't do a damn thing all the previous years so what was going to make this year any different? The answer? My attitude and the pain I was having, oh yeah and that number on the scale.
So for whatever reason in November when I seen that number I decided I was going to change things up in my eating habits. I was going to switch from a big plate to a smaller plate, eat more salads and get fruits and veggies more in my diet. Yes I know right before Thanksgiving and Christmas, I must have been out of my damn mind. But I did it.
Here comes the end of December and I hadn't really noticed a difference in my weight or the way that my clothes were fitting so I decided to join the YMCA. NO it wasn't for a New Year's Resolution either. Those things are made to be broken. I wanted to lose weight but do it the healthy way, no fad diets, no starvation or anything of the sort. I knew that I had to start working out in order to burn more fat I would have to work out and turn it into lean muscle.
Needless to say up until January 21st of this year I had been a total of 3 times. Yeah not alot I know. I joined a Weight Loss Challenge class at the YMCA and the class started on January 22nd. Here it is, time to face the music and be held accountable. I went in the class and got on the scale and was shocked to see that I weighed in at 223. OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!! I was already down 12 lbs since November. (Just realized it was more than I had been saying all along) I didn't know what to expect from this class but was disappointed to find out that it was a classroom structure only class. I thought we would be learning the proper exercises to do, different ways to cook and so forth but nope not so far. So every Thursday is weigh in day.
First Thursday - start day 223
Second Thursday - 222 (1 lbs down)
Tuesday the next week - 219.2 (had to go to this one because I was going to be out of town on that Thursday. Explain in a minute (2.8 lbs down)
This Thursday Past - 218.4 (0.8 down)
So as you can see not much weight loss so far but it is still a lose. One that I am glad to have. So let me explain how this works. These charts is how this works. Instead of counting Calories you are counting Fat Grams. Yes Fat Grams. I know it doesn't seem like a lot but it is trust me.
Basically you pick your weight, follow it over to our height and if you are active or non active and you get your fat gram count for the day. So if I was more active than I could have 33 grams of fat but because I am not I only get 27 grams of fat.
Can I just say that this is way harder then I thought it would be. I have tried counting calories but that didn't work really because I still ate all the wrong foods. Now with this and the help of Myfitnesspal and my Fitbit I am doing a lot better. It doesn't mean that I don't exceed my limit some days because I do but I know to watch it more than before.
So the first three of the weigh ins I did great, lost at least a pound or more but on the 4th I tanked it. You see I went out of town for my nieces funeral and of course instead of packing my car with healthy snacks for the road trip I packed potato chips and chocolates. I ate out and instead of making the healthiest of choices on food I ate what I wanted. I had a steak damn it and I enjoyed every bit of it. I didn't realize they were so high in fat content. I liked to have cried when I seen that a Ribeye was 80 grams of fat. That one piece of meat is almost 3 times the daily amount I am allowed to have.
So from here on out. I am going to make Thursday post of my weight loss journey and to reflect on things I did right, things I did wrong and things that I have learned along the way. I plan on losing 95 lbs by the end of the year and as long as I do it slow and steady I shouldn't have a problem.
Please feel free to share your thoughts, tips, tricks, ideas, support and disappointments with me for I know I am not the only one going through this journey. There are so many of us out there that secretly deal with weight and weight loss issues. It would be nice to know we have the support of each other.
I am sorry this post was so long but I will try to make them shorter in the future. The first one is always the longest it seems. So be watching for my Weigh In Thursday's for I will be baring it all just to show you are not alone if you think you are.
Hope everyone has a great night and stays safe if you are in the line of the winter storm coming through tonight. We are expected to get at least 8-12 inches of snow tonight....woooohooooo. I love the snow.
Talk to you all later and look forward to hearing from you all.