Friday, August 01, 2014

It's Friday It's Friday!!!!!!!

Hello everyone and Happy Friday to you.  Today I am dropping in with some Friday Letters. So I hope you enjoy and let me know you were here.

Dear God,  you sure have a way of sneaking up on me from time to time.  Last night when I went for a walk with my daughter out of the blue there was this message :

I totally didn't expect it but then again, that is why you are God.  You can do what you want when you want.  Thank you for reminding me of this!!

Dear Trent,  thank you for always being there for me and supporting me even when I make things difficult.  I know you love me I just wish we communicated a little better.  I miss how we used to be before we got married.

Dear Victoria, I want you to know how proud of you I am.  You have come so far from where you have been.  You are an amazing mother and a wonderful daughter who has my back always no matter what it is.  Thank you for being my walking buddy and keeping me motivated.  I Love You so much.  

Dear Brandon,  I am glad that you are not working 2 jobs anymore.  You look so wore out all the time and the dark circles under your eyes are driving me crazy.  I just wish you took better care of yourself.  You need to get to the doctor and get a check up and physical.  I am also glad that things are getting better for you at work.  Keep your chin up and always go with your gut.

Dear Christian, you are so freaking adorable.  Nini Loves you and can't wait to see you when I get home in the afternoons.  I love that your mommy sends me pictures of you in the morning when you get up.  It brightens my day.  I mean seriously who wouldn't think you are absolutely adorable.

Dear Mom, we Love and Miss You!!!  You would be so proud of the person that the kids have become.  Brandon working and has his own car, Vicky a mommy and taken care of her education.  I just wish you and Heather were still here with us to be a part of all of it.

Dear Heather,  I know you are watching down on us and I want you to know that we Love and Miss You!!!!  Your sister is a mommy now and I am sure you and mom are both smiling down on her.  You would both love her baby.  Christian is an absolutely love and so adorable.  

Dear Kaylee and Aadyn,  I miss you both so much!!!!!!  I wish and pray everyday that your fathers would allow me to see you both again.  Your mom I know is watching down on your from Heaven and on us all.  I just pray that you all still get to see each other and are apart of each others lives.

Dear Chris,  I know you are still mad at me or at least you don't communicate with me but I want you to know that I have and always will Love You.  You may be a total shithead at times but you are related to me and your father.  I wish things were better between us and we could have an actual relationship.

Dear Jonathan and Brandon, I wish you had a change of heart and realize that we only want what is best for the kids.  We miss them and love them and would do anything in the world to protect them.  I only wanted to keep them together after Heather died.  It was bad enough for them to loose their mommy and we didn't want them to feel like they also lost each other.  Their worlds changed so much and so drastically on that night and it will never be the same.  You also have to realize that if you talked to any of her friends that you would know that her father was only in here life for the last 3 years and how she really felt and what she really wanted.  I am not bashing anyone on here but you can only imagine the pain and hurt that we are in from losing her.  Missing your children is nothing like loosing your child forever.  That is a pain and emptiness that will never go away.