Friday, March 14, 2014

Friday Letters



Hello everyone and welcome to another episode of Friday Letters.  I have been trying to do this every Friday but I am only human and sometimes don't make it happen.  But today it is happening.  Wooohooo.

Dear God,  how much more can we possibly take of this struggle.  I have done alot of struggling in my life and have questioned you on several things but at the end of the day I know you have a plan and we are to follow it.  I get that however, I would love it if you would give us a break.

Dear Mom,  I wish you were still here with us and telling me everything is going to be ok.  I am scared of this biopsy that I have to have on my Thyroid and I know you would be telling me "don't worry, be happy" because that is what you always would say.  I could sure use you saying it to me now and giving me a hug.  I miss you terribly and I know that I will see you again some day.

Dear Heather, I was on MySpace yesterday for the first time in years and was looking at your profile.  I sure do miss you and all the things you used to do and say.  I miss the kids and wish that we could get to see them now that you are in Heaven watching over us.  It still doesn't seem real that you are in Heaven with your Nana and not here on earth with your kids and the rest of those that love you.

Dear Victoria,  I know you are going through a rough patch right now and you are missing Texas.  I just want you to know that I am so proud of you for doing what is best for you and the baby.  You are going to make a great little mommy and I can't wait to meet our monkey.  You will finally have someone to love you for you and that will never leave you (at least until they are 18).  However, just remember that kids don't come with an instruction manual and everything is by trial and error.  Just know that I am here to help anyway that I can.  I do know a thing or two about raising kids, I raised you and your sister and brother.  :-)

Dear Brandon,  The other day when I told you that because of us having to pay for insurance now and didn't know where I was going to get the extra money you looked at me and said "don't look at me for it", that really hurt.  Who was there and helped you pay for your car when you came home?  ME, yes Me, I did that and I didn't have to but I did because you are my child and I wanted to help you when I could.  You just don't realize that there is no where in the world that you can go and only pay $200 a month and that include everything you need to survive.  Your food, water, furniture, roof over your head, the internet, heat and air, laundry and everything else.  I don't know how you became so disrespectful or hateful but I don't appreciate it.  I am not your doormat and you will Not continue to treat me that way.

Dear Trent,  I love you and I know that we will get through this.  You are so encouraging with my Avon business and I appreciate that.  I just wish that I had the confidence in me that you and everyone else has.  I love coming home to you at the end of the day and you wrapping your arms around me to let me know you are there no matter what.

Dear Kisha/Scott, I miss you guys and wish you were closer or we were closer.  I swear it looks more and more promising to move up there with you all and we all get a great big house together.

Dear Kevin/Marie,  It was good seeing you guys the other day.  Sorry dinner wasn't better then just hamburgers but at least you all ate this time..lol.  I am glad that you all came over nonetheless.  I miss you guys.

Dear Doctors,  I am not looking forward to the Needle Thyroid Biopsy on Monday but you are the professionals and you are the ones with the medical knowledge.  I have no choice but to put my faith in your ability to figure out what is going on with me.  FYI, I HATE NEEDLES but I am just going to have to suck it up and endure the procedure because I want to know what is going on with me.

Dear Obamacare,  I don't understand how you can force people to take your insurance.  I understand that we should all have insurance however, the numbers that you all go according to is unrealistic.  You are only basing things off of the Pre-Tax amound of income and not the after-tax income.  At least insurance through our employers gave us the ability to take the insurance out before we got taxed to death on our earnings.  Because of this obamacare we are now at the verge of loosing everything and starving to death literally.  With our take home pay we can barely afford our rent, heat/air, water, garbage, car/car insurance and groceries.  Then you want us to pay you another $675 a month for insurance?  I just have one question....WHERE IN THE HELL DO I GET THAT FROM???????

Dear readers, thank you so much for stopping by and taking an adventure into my life.  It isn't exciting and full of great deals and steals but it is my life none the less and I know there are others out there going through the same thing if not worse then I am.  So if I can provide any insight or laughter in your life then I hope it helps your situation.  Please let me know you were here and have a great and wonderful weekend.