Friday, December 20, 2013

Friday Letters



Hello all and good evening.  I am so super late getting this post done.  It has been a mad house at work the past couple of days with the holidays and year end coming up.  I would normally do this at work but today I didn't even have time to change my mind.  So here we go.

Dear God,  Thank you for letting my babies be home safe and sound.  I know that only you have the full picture and rather I like what is happening or not I can only put my trust in you and go with what you have in store.

Dear Mom and Heather, I miss you both more than words can express.  I wish everyday that you were still here with us.  Watching the kids grown, Vicky becoming a mom and all the first's of Kaylee and Aadyn.  Christmas hasn't been the same since you both became Angels the same year.  It is only fitting that you are together in death as you were in live.

Dear Kaylee and Aadyn,  I hope that you are told about your mom and how wonderful she really was.  It bites that we don't get to see you and I know that it was confusing for you both to be taken away from your mommy and the rest of us.  You both are always in my thoughts, prayers and heart.  I Love You Both and Miss You More than you could imagine.

Dear Hubby,  Thank you for being understanding.  I know that in your family you don't do gift exchange for the adults but in my family we have always done it and that is a tradition I will continue.

Dear Victoria,  I still can't believe that you are going to be a mommy.  I know you have every emotion possible running through you right now but just know that no matter what I am here for you and Love You.  I know you will be a great mommy.  As Trent and I said the other night, this is your family and you make the rules.  I will stand by you even if I don't agree with something going on.

Dear Brandon,  I am glad that you are finally going to visit your grandma.  I know she misses you and I think it does you good to get out and see her and the rest of the family.  You are always so isolated in your room on that damn Xbox or on the computer.  You need to mingle more with the outside world.  I Love You and I am Proud of you for holding onto your job even though you hate it at times I am sure.

Dear Christmas,  I am so over you already and you aren't even here.  You are just not the same with mom and Heather gone.  It would be great if we were able to see her children but only God can make that happen and I pray every night that he does.

Dear Michael,  thank you again for buying Victoria a plane ticket home.  I know that you had other things that you needed that money for and I am sure that with a little praying and hope things will work out for you.

Dear Jonathan and Brandon,  I hope that you are teaching the kids about Heather.  I know she loved them with all her being and that she would want to be here with them.  Having all of us getting along was so important to her.  No matter what happens the best interest of the Kids is all that matters.   I was hoping that you both would take the judges recommendation into consideration and let the kids continue to have a relationship with me, their aunt Victoria and uncle Brandon.  We only want the kids to know that they are loved and not abandoned by us.  I pray that you will reconsider and let us have some form of communications with them.

Dear Jack,  I am not going to get into a pissing contest or an argument.  I am extremely hurt that things happened the way that they did.  I am not going to put it all out for the world to see but I never would have imagined that you and Beth would have done what you did after Heather died.  May God have mercy on your soul.

Dear self,  get with the program and lose some weight already.  Stop being so damn tired and hurting all the time.  Hopefully I can figure this weight thing out and get back to where I was pre-kids.....ha...like that will happen but oh how I miss being that way.

Dear Sewing Machine,  I am so happy that I got you serviced.  I want to be able to use you just the way my momma did.  I can't wait to learn how to create alot of great cool things with you.

Dear readers,  thanks for taking the time out of your day to visit me.  I love reading the different blogs and seeing all the wonderful and cool things that you do and create.  So please drop me a line and let me know you were here.

May you all have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.  God Bless you all and your families.