Friday, January 11, 2013

Alot going on ughhhhh plus stress

Well I went to the hand doctor yesterday for my carpal tunnel and he has scheduled me for surgery. He said that after looking at my test results that the carpal tunnel is extremely severe. Oh great just what I want is to have surgery. I work at a desk all day every day and not having one had up to 100% function isn't going to be fun. I previously had a boxer fractor in my right hand which required surgery and I still went to work. Now remind you I am right handed so I had to relearn everything from eating to tieing my shoes. Learning to write with my left hand was interesting. My writing looked like a 4 yr old was writing. The doctor told me that most people stay off for a week. Well not me. I scheduled my surgery for next Friday. I figured that I will have 3 days to be off before I have to go back to work which will give me plenty of time to be able to move my hand. Considering I can type with one hand it shouldn't be hard.

So Monday I have to go for all of my pre-testing which I hope I can pass all of them. If not then I won't be having surgery. I have a pre-existing abnormal Q-wave in my heart that I have apparently had since 1989. Hmmm imagine my surprise when I found that out. Now there is all kinds of scary things that you can be told when you are being pre-tested for any kind of surgery but my heart is one thing I am always worried about. My dads side of family has heart disease and my dad had at least 5 heart surgeries. So you can see why it worries me. Not to mention the stress I am under at work. I am constantly having chest pains and I know it is from stress and my weight. I am working on getting my weight under control but as for the stress at my work....uh yeah that isn't going to change anytime soon. I have been with my company for 11 yrs and in the same position because there is not advancement opportunity here. Now I am sure you are wondering why I haven't left this place if I can't move up. Well to be honest it is because they do take care of their people. I have been able to take off for months at a time and only work 5 hrs a week and still get paid a full 40 hrs while I was taking care of my mother when she was dying of cancer. Then when my daughter got killed the same year I was off for a whole week and they paid to have her buried and collected over $2,000 for me to help with expenses. So you see my company does take care of me. But the stress level that I have been under with them this last year is enough to have me looking for another job.

So today is Friday and I am going to try my best not to let anything get me stressed but unfortunately as I am sitting here writing this at work, my receptionist just called my desk and started rambling about a call and then hung up before I could respond. I swear I wish they would fire her. errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr is all I can say about it at this point because no matter how much me and other co-workers have complained about her they won't do anything about it. So even though the company takes care of their employees they also fail to discipline or correct any of their employees when they are not doing what they are suppose to be doing.

Breathe, just breathe is all I can keep telling myself to do today because if not I might just lose it. In closing I hope everyone has a great day and a wonderful weekend.